Why Matthew Perry could not watch ‘Friends’ amid dependancy

Former “Friends” star Matthew Perry says he can’t bear to observe himself within the hit comedy — and it has nothing to do with the present.

For Perry, 53, the Emmy-winning sitcom served as a reminder of his lengthy battle with dependancy and alcoholism, he not too long ago mentioned in a dialog with CBC’s Tom Energy.

“I didn’t watch the show and haven’t watched the show because I could go ‘drinking, opiates, drinking, cocaine,’” Perry mentioned within the reside interview. “Like I could tell season-by-season how I looked.”

Perry’s interview with CBC got here greater than a month after he revealed his memoir, “Friends, Lovers and the Big Terrible Thing” in October. In his debut e-book, Perry mirrored on portraying Chandler Bing on “Friends,” his romance with Julia Roberts and extra.

The memoir additionally detailed his experiences with dependancy and sobriety.

Perry instructed Energy that “alcoholism did not care that I was on ‘Friends.’” Alcohol, nevertheless, wasn’t Perry’s solely vice throughout his time on the comedy, which ran from 1994 to 2004.

“I was taking 55 Vicodin a day, I weighed 128 pounds, I was on ‘Friends’ getting watched by 30 million people and that’s why I can’t watch the show — because I was, like, brutally thin and being beaten down so badly by the disease,” he mentioned.

To assist overcome his dependancy and psychological well being points, Perry checked into a lot of amenities. In 1997 he entered the Hazelden Betty Ford therapy middle in Minnesota, the place he discovered key info for his highway to restoration.

Perry instructed Energy {that a} so-called “spiritual guy” on the facility reminded him that his dependancy wasn’t his fault.

“It wasn’t my will that was screwed up. It was that I have this disease and I need to get help,” the actor mentioned.

Many years after his time in Hazelden, Perry mentioned he’s made some progress. In response to his memoir, the actor has been “mostly sober” since 2001 — regardless of a handful of “mishaps” — and is trying ahead to discovering out why he’s “still here” regardless of a number of near-death experiences.

He shared with CBC that he’s even open to revisiting “Friends” with a brand new perspective.

“I’m gonna start to watch it because it really [was] … an incredible ride, but it’s been an incredible thing to watch it touch the hearts of different generations,” he mentioned.

“I’ve been too worried about this. I wanna watch ‘Friends’ too.”

In Might 2021, Perry not too long ago appeared alongside co-stars David Schwimmer, Jennifer Aniston, Courteney Cox, Lisa Kudrow and Matt LeBlanc for the “Friends: The Reunion” on HBO Max.