LaBeouf says he began learning Catholicism as he ready for his upcoming film, “Padre Pio,” concerning the saint of the identical identify.
“It was seeing other people who have sinned beyond anything I could ever conceptualize also being found in Christ that made me feel like, ‘Oh, that gives me hope,’ ” he mentioned. “I started hearing experiences of other depraved people who had found their way — in this — and it made me feel like I had permission.”
LaBeouf mentioned at one level he felt suicidal and was experiencing deep disgrace over occasions that had unfolded in his life.
“I had a gun on the table. I was outta here,” LaBeouf mentioned. “I didn’t want to be alive anymore when all this happened. Shame like I had never experienced before — the kind of shame that you forget how to breathe. You don’t know where to go. You can’t go outside and get like, a taco.”
“But I was also in this deep desire to hold on,” he added.
Whereas getting ready for his new function, LaBeouf lived in a monastery with Franciscan Capuchin friars.
“I know now that God was using my ego to draw me to Him. Drawing me away from worldly desires. It was all happening simultaneously. But there would have been no impetus for me to get in my car, drive up [to the monastery] if I didn’t think, ‘Oh, I’m gonna save my career,'” he mentioned.