Kid Cudi had a stroke two weeks after checking himself into rehab for his psychological well being in 2016, the rapper revealed in an interview revealed Wednesday.
Whereas talking with Esquire journal, the 38-year-old musician and actor recalled spending a couple of months in bodily rehab to get better from the stroke, which landed him within the hospital and slowed his motion and speech. After the medical occasion, Cudi’s supervisor and childhood pal Dennis Cummings inspired him to take a break from music.
“Everything was f—,” Cudi, whose actual title is Scott Mescudi, instructed journalist Clover Hope.
The “Pursuit of Happiness” hitmaker didn’t totally really feel like himself once more till the next yr, when he auditioned for “Lobby Hero,” a Broadway play about legislation enforcement. Whereas getting ready to learn with Michael Cera for the mission, Cudi needed to memorize a hefty quantity of dialogue. Although he didn’t find yourself getting the half, the Grammy winner credit the expertise with serving to him heal from the stroke.
“I proved to myself that I could do it. I needed that at the time,” he mentioned. “I was happy. Like, damn, my brain is still strong. I didn’t lose something in that s— that happened.”
In 2016, Cudi introduced on Fb that he was going to rehab for “depression and suicidal urges.” On the time, the “Man on the Moon” artist had simply come off of a two-week cocaine binge and realized that he had an unhealthy relationship with making music, which had turn into a coping mechanism.
Cudi’s mom, Elsie Mescudi, additionally opened as much as Esquire about praying together with her son and visiting him day-after-day in rehab.
“The hardest thing I have ever had to do was to wait until they were ready for him to call me,” she mentioned.
“It was the best thing that could have happened to Scott. … There is no saying, ‘My child won’t do this. My child won’t do that.’ … You don’t know what they’re going to do from moment to moment, and certainly, when you get to the point where your career blew up overnight, it’s a very difficult thing.”
Lately, Cudi has turn into considerably of a spokesperson for psychological well being. Earlier this yr, the recording artist was invited to talk at an occasion for the Youth Nervousness Middle, the place he mentioned his stint in rehab and experiences with melancholy. Final yr, leisure friends in his documentary, “A Man Named Scott,” described him as a champion for emotional wellness that conjures up different individuals to be weak by way of his work.
“It’s a lot of pressure, but it keeps me alive,” Cudi mentioned of his standing as a mental-health advocate. “It doesn’t stress me out. … It keeps me thinking, ‘Nah, Scott. You gotta be here. Let old age take you out.’”
“I actually can say, at 38, that I love myself,” he added. “And I couldn’t have said that six years ago. I can say that with confidence now and truly believe it, and it shows.”