Life is imitating artwork for Andrew Garfield.
The actor received a Golden Globe for his portrayal of composer Jonathan Larson in “Tick, Tick… Boom!” this 12 months. Within the movie, Larson takes inventory of his life as he approaches the age of 30.
In an interview printed in GQ on Wednesday, Garfield, who will flip 40 subsequent 12 months, gave the impression to be having an analogous sense of tension about approaching his milestone birthday.
But as an alternative of feeling pissed off by his profession aspirations like Larson, Garfield stated he feels “some guilt” about not succumbing to the “societal obligation of procreating.”
“I always thought I would be the first to have kids and settle down,” the star of “The Eyes of Tammy Faye” instructed the journal.
“And [my friends who are also turning 40 are] all shacked up and a couple of kids deep, for the most part. And I’m like…” he continued, trailing off and laughing. “I’m here with you, eating a burger, just contemplating existence. Trying to fill my days with as much nonsense as I possibly can.”
Garfield stated he has tried to launch himself “from the societal obligation of procreating by the time I’m 40,” which he acknowledged was “easier” for him as a person.
“It’s more about accepting a different path than what was kind of expected of me from birth,” Garfield instructed GQ. “Like, By this time you will have done this, and you will have at least one child – that kind of thing. I think I have some guilt around that.”
Garfield’s feedback come after his ex-girlfriend, Emma Stone, had a child final 12 months along with her husband, “Saturday Night Live” author Dave McCary. Though Garfield doesn’t point out Stone in his interview with GQ, he does appear to retain a pleasant relationship together with his “The Amazing Spider-Man” co-star who he dated from 2011 to 2015.
In reality, Garfield instructed “Happy Sad Confused” podcast earlier this 12 months that Stone nonetheless texts him, and was even badgering him for “Spider-Man: No Way Home” spoilers.
His reflection on potential youngsters additionally comes after the loss of life of his mom, Lynn, who died in 2019.
“Life seems to be a perpetual practice of letting shit go,” Garfield instructed GQ. “Letting go of an idea of how a thing should look, or be, or feel. And that one’s a big one [to let go of], because of course I would’ve loved my mum to have met my kids, if I’m going to have kids. And she will. In spirit. She’ll be there for it. I know she’s there, for all the big ones.”
To learn Garfield’s interview in full, head over to GQ.